Ayoko na talagang magpatuloy sa CVG. Hindi naman sa fault iyon ng company. Mababait naman ang mga tao, understanding pa. Iyon nga lang, depressed na depressed ako every day na pagpasok ko. Papunta pa lang sa work naiiyak na ako. Pagkatapos ng work naiiyak ako pauwi.
The last straw came nang matanggap ko ang schedule ko ngayong linggo. Two o'clock AM, as in madaling araw, eh Batangas pa kaya ako manggagaling. 2am to eleven pm bandang tanghali, paano ko mama-manage 'yun? Ayaw ko namang araw-araw last trip (mga ten thirty pm ang alis) ang sasakyan ko, ano. The only way ay kung aalis ako sa amin mga bandang 7pm. Darating ako sa office mga 9:30 pm. Tapos DOON AKO MATUTULOG hanggang bandang one am. Pag natapos ang shift ko eleven pm, considering na laging traffic sa Alabang eh masuwerte na ako na makarating sa Batangas ng 2pm. Then matutulog ako maybe 3 hours, wake up 5 pm, tapos alis na naman ng 7pm for my next shift.
Pusang gala.
Ito na ang magiging ikatlong araw ko na AWOL sa office. I should have reported for work with my brand-new super-convenient sched last Tuesday 2am, but I missed the last trip ang got stranded in Batangas Pier with a bunch of other hapless passengers and a bunch of drunks just across the street. Luckily I managed to get a ride home from a passing jeepney around midnight, or else I would have spent the better part of the night there, by the sea. And it was raining.
Na-trauma na ako since that night. Parang ayaw ko nang lumabas pag gabi.
This job just isn't my cup of tea, I guess.
Oh, and I've just read our company handbook. If umabot sa apat na diretsong araw na hindi ako sumisipot, terminated na talaga ako. Ang ikinakatakot ko lang ay baka pag-bayarin ako ng bond. Of course, since I own practically nothing... ibenta ko na lang kaya isang kidney ko?
Needless to say, galit ang pamilya ko sa akin. Kasalanan ko rin naman. I suppose na selfish ako ay ayaw kong mag-sakripisyo mapag-aral lang ang kapatid ko at makatulong sa bayarin. Eh sa hindi ko na kaya eh. Eh sa ayaw ko na eh. May iba pa naman sigurong mapagkakakitaan ng pera na hindi mo na-fi-feel araw-araw na magpatiwakal.

Last night, around 10:30 p.m., longtime New York news anchor Sue Simmons had . . . something of a meltdown while doing a promo for the 11 p.m. news. She then very sheepishly apologized during the actual news broadcast. It's freaking HILARIOUS. Warning: NWS language!

 I am totally and utterly EXAUSTED. 

I have no idea why, but holy fuck.

I am also BEYOND ENRAGED. DOES ANYBODY KNOW HOW THE FUCK YOU SEND AN EMAIL TO LJ ASKING WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?! I'M STILL NOT GETTING ANY NOTIFICATIONS AND THIS IS GETTING ANNOYING BEYOND BELIEF.

Work is getting better and better during the week because it's just me and Dayna who are hostessing and we're such an awesome pair. Anyways, yesterday I was writting a to-do list and I left it at the cash and I wrote in french. So, while I was eating, she approached me and asked me why I had to go take out books on Fibromyalgia, so I told her and then I was like "YOU CAN READ FRENCH?!" and she said that according to the catholic board, she was billingual, so, I wrote her a love letter entirely in french in my notebook and leaving it at the cash


And today I had the PLEASURE of putting myself in pain. Anyways, I was walking uphill up King Edward street and about 20 feet in front of me, their was this little girl and her mom and she was playing with a purple bouncy ball (a big one) and suddenly I see the ball bouncing past me down the hill and I think 

"Oh fuck. She'll never catch it." 

Next thing I know, I'M somehow running down the hill after this freaking thing, in TRAFFIC because I'm INSANE and for some reason I HAD to get that damn ball. It took me about 5  minutes to FINALLY catch the damn thing (fucking bouncy thing!) and I turn around, out of my mind out of breath (MY SHOES ARE NOT MADE FOR RUNNING) and I forgot to take my pills so I'm THROBBING in pain and I see them WALKING down the hill >_<!! The mom was all like "YOU'RE SO AWESOME! YOU'RE SO AWESOME!" and I'm thinking "GAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH." Anyways, I gave the ball back to the girl and got to work AND WANTED TO DIE.  

Work was okay, haha, but I'm so exausted and happy out of my mind that I'm off for two days. OMG, I HAV TO MENTION THIS. In the Ottawa Sun they always have this thing called the SUNSHINE GIRL - basically, everyday, someone sends in pictures of themselves dressed like a whore to be in the paper. ANYWAYS, today's girl was pretty good looking, bu then I noticed how ODD her hips are, so while the men are oogling, I point how funny built they are, then Allie mentions her funny looking mouth and then all you hear is the guys scream "ALRIGHT GIRLS, WAY TO RUIN IT." then after they leave, we both say "Doesn't change the fact that she's still hot" haha, we're so cool!

 I'm also hoping to get a hair cut tomorrow. And I'm really sick of Triple H. Seriously. He's had HOW MANY covers up to now of the WWE mag?!  ANYWAYS.  I'm back to making a magical pair of panties! :D

OH MAN, how did I forget this. I was talking on the phone with my dad, and suddenly he goes "Wait! Wait! *turns up the volume of the tv* Who's this talking?!" 

"...John Cena."

"Okay! Thanks! I wasn't sure, I always get him confused with Randy Orton."

"H-How?"

"They look the same"

"What?!" 

Keep in mind, I STILL have to tell my dad that NO Edge and Christian aren't ACTUALLY brothers.

"Sorry, But It Was Beautiful"
Andrew Vecchione

This is just to say
sorry I took your money
and burned it.

But it looked
like the world falling apart
when it crackled and burned.

So I think it was worth it.
After all
you can't see the world fall apart every day.

a sixth grade student who based this on:

"This Is Just To Say"
William Carlos Williams

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

Experimented with styles again this time~ I'm trying to figure out most of the selective colouring and succeeded, I think xD Next time I'll have a steadier colour, I hope.

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The single of Suga Shikao's NOBODY KNOWS (XXXHOLiC◆Kei Opening Theme) has been released in Japan today.

clamp_now has some nice links to direct download the Special Edition, which contains, apart from the main song, two extra tracks, booklet scans (with illustration drawn by CLAMP), wallpapers and a screen-saver with the anime PV.

It's Suga Shikao, it's good stuff ^_~

I liked the CD design, by the way...

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That hope
That resides inside of me
That love
That will never be felt
Those cold hands that grabbed mine
It'll all be okay
You told me the greatest lies
The epic false
You held me
But who did I hold?

Afternoon Colored

Those sun tanned hands
That use to hold me
That carassed me
The ones that held my face
Every time you said
"I love you, I love you"

Those sun tanned hands
Held my pale ones
And reassured me that
Everything will be okay

The color of of a summer
Afternoon
Were they

I'm running out of breath
Asphyxiation
Now those sun tanned hands
That I use to love
Are holing onto my neck
Those calloused hands
End my days
My love is it?

Through you I'll live
I'll tell you those secrets that may never be heard of
I'll laugh with you you
And you'll just give me a toothy smile in return
Those words I can't even murmur
To myself at night
You will know me
You will see the side of me that is compassionate
That loves with remorse
I'll tell you about others feelings
My feelings
The eternity that is to come
Words will never be heard
But they will always be felt
Like the Field
That was broken by love and hope

Went to see "Rent" on Friday night, which was fantastic. The music is great, the cast was terrific, and the audience definitely contributed to the experience -- the "Rentheads" acted more like they were at a concert than at a Broadway show, screaming and whooping and singing.

Saturday I went shopping for plants for my mother, which I always get her for Mother's Day. Like everything else, the price of plants has gone through the roof (and, I'm sure, they're blaming the gas prices), so it took me quite a few stops before I found stuff that was both nice and reasonably priced (an independent farm market, it turned out.)

Sunday, my brother visited and we made Mother's Day dinner (mushroom-stuffed chicken, prosciutto-wrapped asparagus and fresh oven fries, plus pineapple angel food cake for dessert). Fortunately, she liked the plants.

And now I start the final countdown to Anime North. I leave a week from Wednesday! WOO HOO!

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, acexkeikai!

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“Nunto 47”
Mingus Tourette

So lonely
that i hope
someone breaks in
here
do what they want

but maybe talk a bit
and hold me
touch my hands
touch my face when it's done

for i am old and thinking
will no one help me with this suffering?

The same soft cry
bound by night

framed by rain
and a desperation

so tired
so many years

how long have i been here?

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How long have I been here? What is here? Are you here too? Where are you? Can I reach you? How long will it be before I can?

David Brothers, Saurav Mohapatra, and Jorge Vega on race and diversity in comics:



Edit: Saurav Mohapatra interview at Sequential Tart. For bonus awesome.

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